~MegaRon

"Baby, do you understand me now
Sometimes I feel a little mad
But don't you know that no one alive
Can always be an angel
When things go wrong I seem to be bad
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Baby, sometimes I'm so carefree
With a joy that's hard to hide
And sometimes it seems that all I have do is worry
Then you're bound to see my other side
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
If I seem edgy I want you to know
That I never mean to take it out on you
Life has it's problems and I get my share
And that's one thing I never meant to do
Because I love you
Oh, Oh baby don't you know I'm human
Have thoughts like any other one
Sometimes I find myself long regretting
Some foolish thing some little simple thing I've done
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood"
-B. Benjamin/S. Marcus/C. Cadwell
"Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood"

I have established what my problem is: I really am a creep! Not to mention overzealous and a tad on the loony side. Not to say it's without cause, but holy damn, I've probably driven so many people away with that and I should really cut back on it if I don't want to lose someone incredibly dear to me. Question is: how? I've been neurotic about people since about the 10th grade when this girl I used to know was freaked out by the fact that I had a crush on her. Ever since, it seems like I want to drive people away for some unfathomable reason. People I really, really care about. Or at least one person. And trust me, it gets old going to bed and fearing that the next time you talk to said person, you may not be as important as you were before.

Of course, this is all stupid, spaz-tastic, should-be-medicated, -sedated, and -liberated musings formed by someone who didn't get enough sleep last night because of a certain two-ton gorilla waking him up at 7 a.m. At least I'll get to bed early tonight.